Freedom

This was not a good feeling seeking for freedom. Yesterday I asked a good woman friend if I could see her naked, online friend. I knew it was wrong to ask and even said it to her. I understand why she got upset. It was like had to had to ask to see if I could. I had the fear that I should but it was like I was trying to tell myself that by asking I was a real man.

I want to be free and know what I can do but I don't want to hurt someone like that again. How do a guy get the freedom to be himself with a woman? How do I get to know a woman in person like I know this woman online?