What's the difference?

I'm not sure what I thinking or what I want to know. I think I hope Mercy reads this and emails me some thoughts. I know that I have blogged about this before but still wondering. What is the difference between friendship and co-dependency?

I have many friendships that have gone by the wayside. I would like to know for sure if that is what is happening with Karin and Mercy. I had never been as close to a woman as I was to Mercy, was closer than with my ex. Now, I know that my relationship with Vicki is even closer than what Mercy and me had and not sure how to talk with Karin and Mercy now. (I guess I should say I hope Karin reads this too.) 

To a large degree I understand that my sexual addiction has become a problem with us. Maybe more in my head than in reality but I pretty sure that it is there too. There is no way to totally repair the damage done but it can heal. 

Anyway, I really want the both of you to know that I really miss the friendship we had and that I still care very much for you. I will be the best friend I can and hopeful that is good enough.

Vicki

Well, today Vicki choose to get coke and weed, even after she just said she wasn't. I sent her some stuff to sell on ebay and told her not to contact me until it gets there. I going to take time to listen to Jesus. I don't know what is in store for our relationship. I love her but she keeps saying she wants to quit for me but wants to keep smoking weed. The problem with that is that she then to get drunk and wrecked on coke. I can't take it much longer. She is going to have to decide if she wants to be with me or keep doing the drugs.