Lack of consteration

I have been having trouble consternating and my psychologist thinks that it might be something I learned as a kid. As in having to be hypersensitive of what was going on around as a way to survive. I remember as a kid laying in bed real still to hear if there was sexual sounds from my parents. Up until last few years everytime I would lose consternation it seemed to always involve sex in some way. I don't remember doing it when I lived in California w/Mom & Jim but after I moved to Oklahoma w/Dad & Debbie.