Sunday, March 10, 2013

Feeling 2

I didn't go to the flea market today because it was raining. Called Vicki and went back to sleep. I had a dream that she was cheating on me. I woke and realized that last night that jealously was part of why I got angry. I wanted her there when I got home.

I called Keith last night and realized that another part of what I was feeling was post visit blue.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Feeling

Feel like it would be nice to lay down, go to sleep and never wake up would be nice. Feel like I really don't matter much to anyone any way. Just don't feel like any I do or say matters really.

Feeling angry because my Vicki addiction is taking her away from me again. I have been back from visiting her and she doesn't think I need to go to as many meetings I am going to. Will what the fuck, I don't think she needs to be getting fucked up as much as she is.