Digging

I feel like digging into my forearm,
Why because it feels like it would help me feel better.
What more do I need to want to.

Digging it has such a nice sound and feel.
Feels like I could get to some feeling that I don't what it is.
The only way to find out what it is,
Is to digging in to my arm or leg.

No, it doesn't seem to hurt
But it would make that place in my arm stop,
Pulsing like it does.
It pulses differently than my heart and so there is something there to get out.

What could be wrong with me digging it out.
Surely it is a bug or something that isn't suppose to be there.
It makes my hand hurt and feel all tight.

Hey, it would give me something to cry about anyway.
I haven't had a good reason to cry in a long time.
Like when growing up, Dad always said I needed something better to cry about.

Christ, I thought You took all this to the cross,
Why I'm still feeling this?
I don't want to feel it anymore.