Dear Lord Jesus,

I tired of feeling like I am a failure. Why won't You change the way I feel? I grateful that You are big enough to hear me say that and love me just the same as before. I'm not totally grateful for the bomb that went off in my relationship with Mercy I am glad that we didn't let it destroy it. I have grown a lot in the last couple months.

Help me see rebellion for what it is. Like when someone says you look like you are doing this and I feel that I'm not I start to act somewhat like that. It's the type of rebellion says, "I'm not acting that way but I want to know what it is." I like me and I want to be strong without causing harm. I'm tired of feeling like I have to meet others exceptions of recovery or lack there of.

I thank You for my recovery. For the empathy You have given. Help remember others' opinion of me don't matter as much as Your.