Teenager

My thoughts seem so much like what I hear about teenagers, guys, thoughts. Seems like the way I have been thinking talking with women that last few years seems more like a teenager. Feels like I am see what I can talk about with them which seems like I should of been a teenager. Seems like it is backwards for me. When I was teenager I knew you did talk that way with girls but now I wondering if that was wrong. Is that why I didn't get fucked like other guys?

I am confused when it comes to talking about sexual things with women. Sounds like to point it is good but what? Dan, on the Realm, that he doesn't like to talk to women online or even f2f by himself because to easy to end up talking about sex and that leads to trouble. Seems funny to me the more people tell this is wrong more it seems to happen. I wish I could see my thought patterns better. I afraid of hurt someone without knowing it. I don't want to be a predator.

I just want a woman that cares for and I can be sexual with because she wants to give to me as a gift. I want that special relationship even if starts out online. I would like have special friend but really a girlfriend that I can talk about it and act out with no guilt. Girlfriend because we have made the commitment.

I do have a special friend but she has someone in her life. I'm still looking at how wrong I may or may not be doing in that relationship. She me understand myself as I help her.