I am angry

I am angry because I feel cheated by life. I turned 44 yesterday and have almost 23 years clean and I am jobless, don't have my own place and do feel really connected to anyone. I have done everything I was suppose to do and everything seems to be taken away from me. I worked as much I could and treated my ex like a queen to what be fucked over. We were suppose to be in love for life and when I left she tells me that she had been trying for a year to get me to leave. I want to know that I'm someone that deserves good things but doesn't feel like I get anything real good. Like when I get a good friend I then something happens and they don't want to be around me.