Do I really know

Do I really know how to be a friend. I feel like I get to know someone then I chase them away by being to close or asking wrong questions. I asked someone that I know how they were doing and just wanted to check on them and I felt like I was slammed. It was a person that I talked to daily and for the last few months we haven't hardly talked and I understand that I need to have something to talk to them most of the time but checking on them once in a while sounds like a friend.

I also noticed that my memory is pretty bad now. I was told about things and was told that I had been told them before I don't remember every being told any of the stuff. I remember really very little of what we talked about during the two years or more. I starting to believe that health issues part of this problem. Three years ago I how pretty good memory now it seems to be failing.

My life right now is just kind of at a stand still and don't seem to have much going on in my life. Am I trying to live through others, I don't think so. I think I am still just being a friend.