I want to post but don't how to start. I want to talk about my co-dependence issues but don't want to hurt or hurt others. I hurt because one the persons is avoiding me and I guess to a point I don't blame, it just hurts. I was told that they don't want me to say anything to them unless I have something to say. But, isn't friendship something that doesn't always mean you have anything really say but I just want you to know I care. How does is it impossible to keep a friendship once it has kind of fallen apart.
I grateful that recently I have been learning that I have to have many things in life to have a life and that relationships have to have many things to talk about to be a real one. I let my relationships get to be about very little. I have asked my girlfriend to start finding things to do in her life so we can talk about things in her life. I have applied for a job online yesterday and have started to volunteer and next week I will start doing it more. Recovery is about getting a life and addiction is about being focus on one thing. I tired of addiction and want more of a life.
I was trying to help someone with the abuse they had suffered and may or not helped them but I realized last night part of the reason that I focused so much on it was to see if I could trigger memories of mine. It was sick and the secret I was keeping from myself. Wow, maybe now I can learn to have a relationship with someone else!
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