I feel very betrayed by my girlfriend. The problem with that is that I knew that she was a practicing addict when I asked to be my girlfriend. I feel betrayed by God because He doesn't seem to care if I have anything nice. As soon as I get something nice it is ruined by something. Why can't I have nice things or time?
Surely, God there is a reason and You are allowed to tell me. I have no fucking memories of my childhood, almost nothing since. What the fuck am I living for? I don't see that I do anyone or anything any good. I tired of fucking living, if the only reason I am alive to give everyone someone to bitch at then I ready to die.
Maybe the best thing for me to do is to sign everything over to my mom and then fucking kill myself. Nobody really gives a fuck about me. Maybe it would better to just off myself and not fucking care what happens afterwards. Why should I care what happens then since no really cares what happens to me.
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i care, i love you, and so do my alters, and the only answer i can give you about the god thing is there is no god so stop blaming it. no one is choosing to hurt you on purpose.
ReplyDeleteI dont think your mum would be very happy if you do that and maybe its a saving grace that you dont remember your childhood. things could be a lot harder for you if you did.
Thanks Mercy and Crew.
ReplyDeleteMaybe I need label this kind rant. :)