Wanting to write a poem

Wanting to write a poem. Partly because my two women friends that blog have poems and the music I went to see had poems that were put to music. I have no idea what it is but I can feel it in my head. Went on a art tour today and there is artistic theme moving me, something that hasn't happened in many years. I know that it is there because many years ago I did paint and wrote some poetry. What has happened to me that has caused it all to fade away.
Reading the "Struggle For Intimacy" seems to be playing a part also. Intimacy has become the theme for the month or maybe longer. Intimacy is a great theme for me and maybe part of the poem and art. Intimacy bring to mind so many distorted ideas of relationships. The thought that comes to me mind just here the word tells me that I have no real idea of the meaning. I am grateful as a guy to know that it isn't talking about sex but not sure the meaning.
Intimacy doesn't necessarily mean love as the one most of us think of love. I think when most people think of love it is between a man and woman, as in lovers. However, I have an intimate relationship with my sponsor and a sponsee. I learning online intimacy with women that I hope will transfer into intimacy with a f2f relationship with a women and then with a woman, even to the point of a lover. Intimacy what a scarier thought for a person whom grow- up in an abusive home. The idea of co-dependent no more is scary but in a strange way because I truly don't want to admit that I'm still co-dependent on anyone.

BLAH...