Distance

I think I am going to try distance and it maybe also that others are doing the same thing. I decided not to go to a recovery site because someone I care for asked me to go there but now it feels that I'm going to go just see that person and not for anyone else.I meet one else there but I don't feel comfortable there anymore. Some day in the future when I can separate my feelings I can go there but not now. I wasn't and have been called a stoker but maybe in a way I am. I think that is creepiness I feel inside. Do I care too much, maybe but I don't what is  called. I trying to get an understanding of my feeling and thoughts which others seem to be able to understand in themselves. I feel like a freak and if I say how I feel I will trying to copy someone else.

How do I love and care without hurting or getting hurt?