Crying

I was listening to this song and missing Vicki plus afraid of what she is doing or more like whom. I was thinking how she feels like she isn't getting anywhere and does things to please others over there. I look at myself and I know that I'm no where near where I thought I be but not sure where I was going.

The part of love that I hate is caring for someone and not being able to do shit to help them become the person they tell you about and whom you know they can be. People say you can't help someone if they don't want help and you aren't healed. Problem with the later is that how do you know you well enough to help if you don't try. The first one I understand but you can offer can't you?

I am still learning how to detach with love. It sounds so easy but it's simple and that doesn't mean easy, fuck!!! To detach with love about drugs and mates then now her fucking someone else 3 times and is her guitar teacher. I don't know if I can agree to let her go there again after today. My head is to fucked up thinking what are they doing and I know that she is hurt because of situation but it's her fault. It wouldn't of happened if she listened to me and told him about me in the first place.