Down again

I can feel my depression which is new. It feels like I want to crawl in bed and just sleep.

I feel guilty because I can't wait to have sex with Vicki in 5 days. It's been a long time since I've been with her that I want to be with her for a while before sex but she has said that she's the same. I don't want sex to overwhelm me but with Vicki compared to Cherie is completely different. Vicki doesn't see it as something dirty which Cherie did.